Thursday, August 29, 2019


Another month. More, actually. Maybe this is how blogs end? Slowly, like the summer fading away and turning into autumn.
Some of our heirloom tomatoes this year. They ripened very late!
I really don't know how much I will blog here in the future. I don't know how much I will sew in the future. I still plan to, of course, but I haven't sewn anything since my last update, despite desire to and full intention. Of course, lack of time does influence my ability to get much done, that way.

Maybe I am just getting middle aged and moody but I have felt very down the past few years. I don't like mainstream American society, at least how it is presented on public platforms. I do know, and enjoy, many very down to earth, humble people who live simply and love fully. But the mainstream public representation? It sucks. It makes me absolutely depressed. It's a self centered, consumer oriented, disposable type of society. 

I hate that we live with so much and yet others in the world live with so little. That we can happily toss "old" food in the trash without a second thought while other people could make literal weeks worth of meals out of food waste. How people can buy clothes and throw them out because they don't like them anymore, or they go out of fashion, or simply because they have too many. I think of the people who made those clothes and who probably got paid next to nothing for doing it. My heart hurts. I'm sad. This world is bleeding out. Humanity is, anyway. And we are doing it to ourselves. The natural world, I think, will cycle round as she always does. She will survive. But us? I don't know. I think we are very close to the end.

Sewing for fun seems really. . .I don't know. . .nonuseful? To me now. I love creating, but when I already have all I need to wear or use, and my children have plenty of clothing, what is the purpose, really, of creating new garments? Just to say I made them? To take cute pictures and post them for likes? To use up fabric? And if so, why use it up if it's not time for it to be used yet? There are certainly so many things I COULD make, but I don't need to. I am perfectly content with what I already have. 

That's not to say I will never sew again. Of course I will! But probably only what I really need or could use, or maybe toys for the children, or Halloween costumes, or the odd historic outfit here and there. 
Most of my free time this month has been taken up this way. I'm close to being
done with my first year. I am glad I stopped putting this off. 
In short, I probably won't blog here as much as I used to. I do still plan to keep up posting on my other blog, since that is not sewing specific. :D And yes, I did not post at all over the summer there but I started up again last week and it was nice.

It's been a weary August. I am very tired now, as the month draws to an end. Between a very long mystery illness that both little Rose and I had (days of labs and teams of doctors could not figure it out!) ER visits and a hospital stay (thankfully we are home now!), the start of school and the loss of my Grandpa, I am so tired. I look forward to September so much, and the beginning of Fair Week this weekend. We will ride all the rides and sample the local goods and watch the tractor pulls and the boys will see how their 4-H projects fared and the children have the whole week of school off because of it. It will be a good autumn.

It is a gentle time of year.
Much love, my friends, and keep on, always,



  1. I would be interested to see your thoughts on other things, especially OBOD, if you're comfortable sharing them! I enjoy your posts in general. I'm glad you and Rose are feeling better.

    1. Thank you. I may post about OBOD on my other blog once I feel like I have some organized thoughts about it - right now I feel mostly like a sponge, soaking up information, and have yet to really sort through all I've experienced so far. I am, I admit, still a skeptic, but this feels right to explore to right now. It's been pretty intense for me. A lot of digging into very deep places of being, and remembering many things I thought I had forgotten.

  2. Dear Sarah,
    I check in with your blog now and again to see how you are doing.

    Big hugs and concern from here. Mystery illnesses are no fun and they say the mind and soul as well as the body, perhaps because the future seems so un-assured. Am wondering if perhaps you had a tick bite that transmitted something, although both of you got it, so...

    Have had similar thoughts and worries about the state of our society and threats to our world, as have other costumers. And questioning the utility and rightness of making things just for the joy and doing of it. As a result I make less and research more...and re-use more. In the last you've been a wonderful model with all of your repurposing.

    Very best, and may health return to you both,

    Natalie in KY

    1. It has been so nice to see you again online! I have really enjoyed reading your blog posts about boating and the sleeve plumpers you've been developing for your 1890's blouse. It seems there aren't many costuming bloggers left from the "old days" when we all used to post on the Sense and Sensibility message board! I have always enjoyed the depth of research you put into your projects and the details you share!

      We never did find out what the illness was that we had. Rosie was released from the hospital after days of tests and is under the care of the pediatrician who treated her in the hospital until mid October, just to be sure all her levels are where they need to be. After that, we can resume our normal check ups with her family pediatrician. Whatever it was attacked our liver and we both developed jaundice, fever and extreme fatigue and body pain along with other odd symptoms. The usual culprits were ruled out with testing, so it remains a mystery. At this point I am just very relieved that she is, to all appearances, back to her normal, happy, active little self!

      So glad to see you again!


Thank you for your lovely thoughts!